new beginnings

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in ancient Egypt ,architects had this fear of wasted areas ,they had to fill the space with beautiful details, writers  described it as “being horrified by empty spaces “ they used every strong word to describe how much it wasn’t acceptable by them to see an empty space that can be used and not use it

When I look at my life and how I spent my life so far, I feel horrified by wasted time

Since today is my birthday   , I have this reminder that am getting older and haven’t yet found what am looking for

since the time I was 16 I started feeling I should of found my passion by now, so as I didn’t find it year after year I was getting more frustrated with myself, and how am getting older but not finding what I want to do, my birthdays became more of a punishment, a reminder that time is running from me

since I was 16 I learned different things, gave thinking courses and workshops, got involved in the energy healing world, studied healthy nutrition school to help others and myself, got involved in politics awareness a little bet, read a lot about anything and everything, hoping I will find my thing, I took many first steps, but none of them felt right

sometimes I try to remind myself that am still young ,and what I did so far is not that bad ,but am never really convinced I feel like an old soul ,that doesn’t have much time ,and needs to do something now

I know am fascinated by people ,how we think and act , and I want to help others  feel better and be better versions of themselves ,but I still don’t really know how .

Finding you path is really hard, and feeling you been searching for forever is frustrating ,especially when you have the feeling that you have something to offer to the world ,I can contribute ,I know I can ,but I don’t know how .

A month ago these were my thoughts, here’s another year wasted, with nothing new, exciting, what could happen in one month right!

Well now a month later ,and in my birthday  I can say lots of things happened, I moved to another country , found a job as close as it can be to what I want to do  and learn , found a place for myself  to live alone for the first time , and still there’s a lot to explore  here .

If there’s one thing I learned this year, is that a lot can happen in a really short time, never stop and never ever give up

29-1-2015 is my 24th birthday, usually I would have people to celebrate it with, but fewer things to celebrate, now am celebrating a whole new life alone

Miss my family, but love the change .

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finally moving away

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i was so busy preparing myself to travel  with my friends sweet baby to another country , i finally finished my papers , and will go at Monday , so excited and nervous , just the fact that i can’t go back for a year and half  is a little bit scary , but i love the new beginning , wish me lots of luck , i hope when i get there i’ll go back to writing posts ,i loved blogging  🙂

when you least expect it

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 “in the blink of an eye,something happens by chance-when you least expect it-sets you on a course that you never planned, into a future you never imagined “

this last month  my life went upside down in a good way  , after a month of sitting alone in my room not finding the strength to talk with any one or do anything it all changed with one act of love .

in my home we are used to having people living with us for different reasons ,but mainly they were girls who need a place to live in and have difficulties in their own homes , one of those girls was my sister’s friend from college ,she lived with us for 3 years ,used to call me mum “am only one year older than her ” ,and we had a great relation ,two years ago she got married and traveled with her husband to work in another country ,we skyped sometime but communication became way less than before , and she came to visit once before ,and this last month

when she came she couldn’t believe the bad place i was in , and surprising enough for me , she was the first one to not ask me to explain myself , or my actions, she just sat beside me ,told me “i lived with you , and i can say i know why you’re feeling the way you do , and i know what hurts you ,and why you can’t talk to your family about it ,and i have the solution , all i need is for you to accept help ” just like that ,we talked a lot ,i went and lived with her this month ,she went back yesterday,,and in the coming few weeks am traveling to go live with her  and search for a new job there

all this was a great surprise for me , i never would of expected this to happen, now i believe more than ever “sometime something beautiful happens when you least expect it ”

and this wasn’t the end of it , once i decided to have the courage to open my heart again , many other beautiful surprises happened

what this beautiful girl did , changed lots of things in me , i restored part of who i am ,believed in the world again , and felt really loved ,she really touched my soul .