in ancient Egypt ,architects had this fear of wasted areas ,they had to fill the space with beautiful details, writers described it as “being horrified by empty spaces “ they used every strong word to describe how much it wasn’t acceptable by them to see an empty space that can be used and not use it
When I look at my life and how I spent my life so far, I feel horrified by wasted time
Since today is my birthday , I have this reminder that am getting older and haven’t yet found what am looking for
since the time I was 16 I started feeling I should of found my passion by now, so as I didn’t find it year after year I was getting more frustrated with myself, and how am getting older but not finding what I want to do, my birthdays became more of a punishment, a reminder that time is running from me
since I was 16 I learned different things, gave thinking courses and workshops, got involved in the energy healing world, studied healthy nutrition school to help others and myself, got involved in politics awareness a little bet, read a lot about anything and everything, hoping I will find my thing, I took many first steps, but none of them felt right
sometimes I try to remind myself that am still young ,and what I did so far is not that bad ,but am never really convinced I feel like an old soul ,that doesn’t have much time ,and needs to do something now
I know am fascinated by people ,how we think and act , and I want to help others feel better and be better versions of themselves ,but I still don’t really know how .
Finding you path is really hard, and feeling you been searching for forever is frustrating ,especially when you have the feeling that you have something to offer to the world ,I can contribute ,I know I can ,but I don’t know how .
A month ago these were my thoughts, here’s another year wasted, with nothing new, exciting, what could happen in one month right!
Well now a month later ,and in my birthday I can say lots of things happened, I moved to another country , found a job as close as it can be to what I want to do and learn , found a place for myself to live alone for the first time , and still there’s a lot to explore here .
If there’s one thing I learned this year, is that a lot can happen in a really short time, never stop and never ever give up
29-1-2015 is my 24th birthday, usually I would have people to celebrate it with, but fewer things to celebrate, now am celebrating a whole new life alone
Miss my family, but love the change .